~Letting go of the old makes way for the magic to happen~
This week has had its challenges! Whilst in the middle of trying to work out which way to go, a song I wrote a few years ago popped into my head and gave me the solution to my problem. I thought I would share with you the story that was the inspiration for the words of the song … Just Let Go
We had lived at Elinike for 10 years, having built our business from the ground up. We had bought the 40 acre property, which was bounded on one side by the Murray river, just as a semi bush block with no road, no power and certainly no home, but we had a dream to build bed and breakfast cottages. Over a number of years we had built not only a magnificent looking property, but also a very successful and award winning business which was frequented by guests from far and wide. So what happened to cause the business to fall apart I hear you ask? I guess there were lots of reasons. Looking back, probably the most significant was not being able to let go when I knew in my heart it was time to move on. I was extremely run down and very tired, but this was mine and we had built it from scratch, so how could I let it go to someone else? Well, sometimes the universe has a wonderful way of making things happen so you are forced to make a decision and move on to the next stage of your journey, and fulfill the purpose for which you were born.
About the same time as we moved from Echuca to Melbourne to start again, Michael arrived home from his usual 8 months in Belgium, to spend a month or two with us in Australia. He was a road cyclist with a team in Belgium and had been living his dream of racing in Europe. It was always such a joy for Bill and I to have him home. Even though we knew it was what he had always wanted to do, and we supported him all the way, it was still very difficult having him living on the other side of the world … we both missed him so much. Well, this particular home coming was one for which I was certainly not prepared. As we drove from the airport, I knew he was trying to tell me something but wasn’t sure how. Finally he found the courage to ask, “What if I told you that I was going to now live permanently in Belgium?” I looked straight ahead and just about choked as I fought back the tears. Michael had met a beautiful young Belgium woman and they had decided to marry. All you want for your children is for them to be happy, but right now I was the mother who did not want to let go of her baby boy! A voice inside of me was screaming, “God, this is just not fair! Why oh why is this happening to me? How could I lose the property and then Michael as well? Just give me a break and tell me what it is I need to learn.” I guess the words of the song tells of how hard it was saying our farewells at the airport when it was time for him to go. It was especially hard watching Bill hugging his son with tears streaming down his face as he said goodbye.My whole world had fallen apart and I wasn’t sure if I could go on. Each morning I had to force myself to get up and make the decision to move forward.
It is not until we become totally vulnerable that we can look beyond what is, and see the amazing opportunities which lie ahead. This is the moment when we discover the answers to all those questions which have lay dormant inside us for so many years. It is when we finally “let go”, that we discover who we really are and for what purpose we were born. This can come to us in so many different ways. For some it is a serious health issue, for some the breakup of a relationship, for us it was financial meltdown. And just so you know, this story has an extremely happy ending … and I am so very grateful!